Details

Ever get so caught up in details, that it takes away your joy?  I discovered that about myself last week renovating our kitchen.  We had just laid a beautiful new floor, and my enjoyment was cut short due to my angst over what type of door knobs to put on.  I then realized that is what I do in life: get so caught up in the little details, that I fail to see and enjoy the big picture of life as it unfolds.  As Oprah would say, “When you know better, you do better.”  Now, I appreciate and live in the moment, and don’t really get hung up on the details.  I find it’s an easier way to live!

Motorhead

My son Corey plays guitar and is into heavy metal, so last night he and I watched a documentary of Lemmy Kilmister, the lead singer and bass player for the band Motorhead. I was intrigued that Lemmy lived in a tiny apartment filled with enough collectibles that he could create his own museum.    He is a wealthy man, and could live in a mansion, but he chooses to live in a tiny $900/month apartment on  Sunset Blvd. because he likes living in that area.

The documentary interviewed several people who said different things about him because he is such a unique character.  However, they all admired him because he is authentic, and not trying to emulate someone else.  I believe that is why people are attracted to him.   Lars, the drummer from Metallica, said Lemmy should be a verb. I liked that statement.

It’s not about me going out and becoming a carbon copy of Lemmy, or anyone else, it’s about me being so comfortable in My own skin that it doesn’t matter to me what others think of me, and to live My own authentic life.

Love

The word “God” gave me an image of an old white bearded man who loves, but who is also ready to smack me when I’m bad! (That’s how deeply ingrained our beliefs, values and attitudes are, and they are usually passed onto us by someone else, such as our parents, church, etc.)

In my search for remembering who I am, it hit me that if God is love, and I am made in that image, then am I not that?  Thinking of mySelf as a loveforce gives me an image of a non-judgemental, accepting, loving Being, with no maleness/femaleness attached to its identity.

This may sound child-like to some, and it is none of my business what others think of me.  I am on my own journey, and I will respond to what resonates in my soul, and that becomes my truth.

I am a loveforce, and because I recognize that in mySelf, I see others in the same light.   When I live this way, the vibration I send into the universe  connects to  others who are on their journey to remembering who they are.  There is nothing for me to do, just be mySelf, and stand in the knowing of who I AM.

Birthdays

I usually treat my birthday like New Year’s Day, which is to make new resolutions of what I want to  change in the upcoming year.    While there is nothing wrong with this, my list is always about ways to improve mySelf (get more exercise, drink more water, etc.)  And again, there is nothing wrong with this, IF it comes from loving mySelf.   If this is the case, then making change will be easy, because it is tied in to the belief that I love mySelf enough to want to take care of mySelf.

However, if I am wanting to make the change because I feel that I am not enough just as I am, then the change will be hard, and will most likely be dropped, making me feel even worse about mySelf.

Last week, I turned a fabulous fourty-nine!  As I pondered the upcoming year, my resolutions are to begin women’s retreats based on Code Model coaching (TM), to rely on my intuition for answers, and to obtain my third degree black belt.  Not a bad list!  I have no doubt I will do these things because of my belief about mySelf.  I  no longer want to hide, or downplay who I am.  I did not come here to keep mySelf small and live a weeney life.

If you would like to learn what  Code Model coaching is,  check out www.WEL-Systems.com

Happy Thanksgiving!

Love Audrey

 

Integration

This past year has been an exciting and accerated one for me as I journeyed towards being certified as a CODE Model Coach through WEL-Systems. As I write this, I can feel that my body is relaxed, my belly is soft, my shoulders are down, and I am breathing deeply into my body. I feel that everything I have learned in the past year is now integrating into my body. I have read and understood that everything I need is inside of me, but now I KNOW it. There is a calmness and a quiet knowing about me. There is a desire for me to be still and to get to know mySelf. The strategies I ran for years to run away from mySelf are just melting away, effortlessly, and I am no longer afraid, for it is just me. I have discovered that just being me is OK, and I kinda like it! Now let the fun begin!

Perfectionism

For almost three decades I tried to be “perfect”, and was never able to achieve it.  I thought I had to do more, be more, be smarter, etc.  What is perfect?  Can you put a pound of perfect in the trunk of your car?  No?  Then “perfect” is a nominalization.  I realized that I kept striving for an image of perfect according to someone else’s standards of what the perfect body, house, children, etc. should be.   Who set these standards?  And why am I thinking I have to be a slave to someone else’s standards?

This is where I draw my line in the sand.  I am no longer falling prey to a standard of beauty according to someone else.  I now know that if I am made in the image of God, and am a Godforce, then how can I be less than perfect?  How can any of us be less than perfect?  When this paradigm shift happened, I began to accept all the abundance the universe had to offer, such as joy, health, wealth, and love.  For I know that if I am made perfect in the image of God,  then the universe is conspiring for me, and not against me. What a wonder-filled way to live!

And what a wonderful way to begin each day!     Whoo, hoo!  Here comes my life!

Have a wonder-filled week!

Love Audrey

Judgment

What I have been aware of is that I am here to listen and follow the feelings my soul urges me to experience.  To follow my heart, my dreams, and my path of joy.    Is this selfish?  Do I hold mySelf back and keep mySelf small for fear of judgement of others?

I now know that I will never be judged unless I accept the judgment of those around me.  And even if I did, it is still not good, bad, right, or wrong. For how could I be free of judgment if I did not experience it?  Now for me it is time to move on.  I feel like I experienced this for 48 years, thank you, now I am ready for a new adventure.

I leave others alone as well, including my family, to allow them to evolve according to their own needs and designs.  We all left bliss to come here to have our own experiences.  Who am I to deem whether it is good, bad, right, or wrong?  It simply Is.

The more I accept mySelf just as I am, the more I accept others just as they are, for they are a reflection of me.  When I love mySelf, I rise above judgment.  I listen only to the voice within me, and follow my path of joy.  Then “Selfish” becomes “Godish”!

Have a wonderful week!

Love Audrey